I first off would like to say I recently started growing a mustache, friends and coworkers constantly tell me to shave and that I look like a pedophile. Yeah I know I do but it’s because I’m going through the awkward phase just give me two more months, I promise I will no longer look like a pedophile but I actually got new glasses today, so I hope I look more hipster-ish this way. This isn’t what this post is about but I thought I might as well kill two birds with one stone. The other day I thought maybe I should message my ex but after a good run and looking through old pictures just smiling and laughing. I did some in-depth thinking. My conclusion is I’m not going to message her. Why am I not going to message her you may ask? Well have you ever heard of the expression “If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were.” of course you have, well I want my ex to be free and just experience life, I want her to experience other guys, if that’s what she wants, and if that’s not what she wants maybe she just happier alone but I just want her to experience life without me. We were young when we first got together and sometimes you grow apart but sometimes you just need space to learn and grow and either way my life will go on with her or without her, in the end of the day her happiness is just way too important and if she wasn’t happy with me then I understand. I will always love her and will only wish for nothing but the best for her in life. I know she was meant to accomplish great things. If she ever wants me back I know she will message me even if she just wants me back as a friend but for now I’ll just cheer her on from a distance. 2018 was a rough year, I broke completely and had to build myself backup and for 2019 I just expect myself to keep on building myself up and just keep on being a better me than I was yesterday.