I want to be in relationship so bad. I hate being alone. I know I can’t be in one. I don’t love myself like I should. Until I learn to love myself, I won’t be able to. I’m insecure, so whenever someone with a pretty face talks to me and makes me feel good, I tend to make reckless decisions because that person made me feel good about myself and it’s what I needed to hear at the moment. I want to love myself so I don’t feel so insecure. I don’t want to feel so low all the time so I don’t cheat and hurt people who come into my life. I know I’m not perfect, I know my flaws. I just need time. When I’m in love, I’m in love like that’s the only person I want, everyone else is just somebody to make my bruised ego get a bit better, in the end of day it shouldn’t be like that. I know my problems and my goal is to fix them.