I’ve been really depressed lately and it’s really bad like I thought about killing myself today and I spent most my day crying in the bathroom at work. This is the second time this has happen to me. I start to forget to breathe until someone calms me down and luckily I had a good friend to help me through it today and what he said to me made me cry even more and I felt better but I’m tired of feeling like this because I know I shouldn’t feel this way. I want to tell my mom but I’m scared she already has one child with depression she doesn’t need another one. I’ve always been the golden boy like she never had to worry about me and I don’t want to give her another thing she has to stress about, I just don’t know what to do. Anyways I do want to share what my friend said because I feel like it can help other people too. while I read this again I feel so fucking stupid that I want to die. There’s so many people that care about me and I know it too and I love them so much but sometimes it’s just so hard to keep going. I didn’t have the best childhood growing up and I know a lot of people had it worse than me but I don’t know what’s wrong with me. My life was literally perfect like a month ago, I feel less insecure and I love myself and now I just feel like what’s the point of anything in life, I don’t like feeling this way.