April’s Real Fool

No one thinks about the jester
But the jester thinks about you
I have to keep you entertained
I mean you’re the queen living in the castle
And I’m the man without a home
I still wonder when you’ll let me in
All those knights, yet I’m still stupid enough to put up a fight
All those nights, I’m still acting like a fool
But you’re the queen and I’m your tool
On some days, even me the jester wants the queen


Say My Name

I miss you more than words could ever explain.
I know that it’s all in my brain,
but I stay up at night thinking of you and that drives me insane,
That’s my own fault and I’m the one to blame.
Maybe someday you’ll feel the same,
Hopefully one day you’ll say my name.

Fill Rust.

You make me so numb
I wish I could feel
But my emotions you steal
I guess that’s just how I’m made
My heart with a blockade
I can’t grow in this cage
In rage
How could you walk
Without a talk
You said forever
I didn’t think that meant never
You never gave me enough credit
I mean you said it
I’m not him.
Something about his aurora or his presence
You made me feel like peasant
So unpleasant
I try to act like I’m not hurt or like I’m okay
But no lie
I still cry
Trying to forget what you did
Who am I going to kid
I’m scarred
And all that love you borrowed
I need it back so I don’t spiral
Oh how I was a fool
You used me like tool
Right in front me with all that disrespect
But how was I suppose to suspect
Let alone detect what was under my nose
Stupid of me that no questions arose
I mean what am I suppose to do
You already chose
I hope it was worth it
Because I’ve never felt more broken.
Maybe I should be king of the knots,
Since I always have knots in my stomach.


My life will never be the same
I have a soul that can’t be tamed 
Lost the love of my life
The person who I taught was going to be my wife 
I dropped out of university 
Now I’m trying to figure out what the universe means to me 
My life’s a mess 
Somehow it’s been the best 
My life is a mess and I couldn’t be any more happier

Maybe One Day

Maybe one day I’ll see you and tell you I found someone new,
someone who doesn’t give up on me.
Maybe one day I’ll see you and tell you I’m in love with someone else,
someone would loves me better than you did.
Maybe one day I’ll see you and tell you I’m extremely happy,
happier since you left my life.
Today I haven’t found anyone new.
Today I’m still madly in love with you.
Today no matter how happy I think I am, it will never compared to the moments I was with you. 

Stranger on the Train

Maybe it was the way she stood with no care in the world
Blasting her music on the train like no one would notice how loud it was playing
Walking around the train like she owned the place
You could tell she didn’t give a fuck
She walked on the train and the first thing I noticed was her skateboard
Mysterious with her sunglasses on
I just wanted a taste of her brain, just wanting to know more
She was so foreign to me
She was unique in the way she presented herself
But she was herself
No front
No bullshit
So confident and that’s what made her sexy
Not her body or face, just her fierce confidence
And I wanted to get to know her.

My Beautiful Trip to Munich, Germany

So, I’m back from Munich. Wow what an amazing experience. There was so much beauty, history and just amazingness in one city. I’m really glad I got to go but now I’m really upset coming back home because to be honest I don’t love living in New York, shocking I know.

My first day in Munich was actually really bad and it was one of the worst days I’ve experienced in a while. I did not sleep on my 8-hour overnight flight and When I arrived in Germany, TSA held me up for a while like everyone on my plane was behind me in a line and they all went through before I was done but they finally let me in. It was about 7am and my hotel check in time was at 1pm so I waited at the airport until it was time for me to go to the hotel. When I arrived at the hotel, I said to myself finally I can take a nap. Guess what I couldn’t. The receptionist said my room wasn’t ready. I waited almost 3 hours until my room was ready. I finally was able to sleep but after that day I had one of the best experiences of my life that I had in a while. People kept asking me before I left why are you going to Germany, honestly it was just because my favorite soccer team plays there so it was something I wanted to do.

So, I went to their stadium to do a tour. Bayern Munich (the soccer team) also had an awesome museum at their stadium so I got to see that as well.

I also did a lot of learning while in Munich, especially about King Ludwig II of Bavaria because I went to go see Neuschwanstein Castle (a castle Ludwig did not complete before his strange death). This castle is gorgeous and near the Bavarian Alps, so the views are just incredible. There were so many places that I was not allowed to take photos of that I wish I was able to. For that reason I just recommend people to go to Munich. I fell with this city and I wish I could live there. Now being home it makes me jealous that people really think that New York is the best place to live or they get excited to come here but for me, I just wish I could get out of here.

I’m glad I got to go to Germany and just simply had an experience of life time and I can not wait to go on more adventures again, but Germany will definitely be a place I’d travel to again.