No one thinks about the jester But the jester thinks about you I have to keep you entertained I mean you’re the queen living in the castle And I’m the man without a home I still wonder when you’ll let me in All those knights, yet I’m still stupid enough to put up a fight All those nights, I’m still acting like a fool But you’re the queen and I’m your tool On some days, even me the jester wants the queen
I miss you more than words could ever explain. I know that it’s all in my brain, but I stay up at night thinking of you and that drives me insane, That’s my own fault and I’m the one to blame. Maybe someday you’ll feel the same, Hopefully one day you’ll say my name.
You make me so numb I wish I could feel But my emotions you steal I guess that’s just how I’m made My heart with a blockade I can’t grow in this cage In rage How could you walk Without a talk You said forever I didn’t think that meant never You never gave me enough credit I mean you said it I’m not him. Something about his aurora or his presence You made me feel like peasant So unpleasant I try to act like I’m not hurt or like I’m okay But no lie I still cry Trying to forget what you did Who am I going to kid I’m scarred And all that love you borrowed I need it back so I don’t spiral Oh how I was a fool You used me like tool Right in front me with all that disrespect But how was I suppose to suspect Let alone detect what was under my nose Stupid of me that no questions arose I mean what am I suppose to do You already chose I hope it was worth it Because I’ve never felt more broken. Maybe I should be king of the knots, Since I always have knots in my stomach.
My life will never be the same I have a soul that can’t be tamed Lost the love of my life The person who I taught was going to be my wife I dropped out of university Now I’m trying to figure out what the universe means to me My life’s a mess Somehow it’s been the best My life is a mess and I couldn’t be any more happier
Maybe one day I’ll see you and tell you I found someone new, someone who doesn’t give up on me. Maybe one day I’ll see you and tell you I’m in love with someone else, someone would loves me better than you did. Maybe one day I’ll see you and tell you I’m extremely happy, happier since you left my life. Today I haven’t found anyone new. Today I’m still madly in love with you. Today no matter how happy I think I am, it will never compared to the moments I was with you.
Maybe it was the way she stood with no care in the world Blasting her music on the train like no one would notice how loud it was playing Walking around the train like she owned the place You could tell she didn’t give a fuck She walked on the train and the first thing I noticed was her skateboard Mysterious with her sunglasses on I just wanted a taste of her brain, just wanting to know more She was so foreign to me She was unique in the way she presented herself But she was herself No front No bullshit So confident and that’s what made her sexy Not her body or face, just her fierce confidence And I wanted to get to know her.
So, I’m back from Munich. Wow what an amazing experience. There was so much beauty, history and just amazingness in one city. I’m really glad I got to go but now I’m really upset coming back home because to be honest I don’t love living in New York, shocking I know.
My first day in Munich was actually really bad and it was one of the worst days I’ve experienced in a while. I did not sleep on my 8-hour overnight flight and When I arrived in Germany, TSA held me up for a while like everyone on my plane was behind me in a line and they all went through before I was done but they finally let me in. It was about 7am and my hotel check in time was at 1pm so I waited at the airport until it was time for me to go to the hotel. When I arrived at the hotel, I said to myself finally I can take a nap. Guess what I couldn’t. The receptionist said my room wasn’t ready. I waited almost 3 hours until my room was ready. I finally was able to sleep but after that day I had one of the best experiences of my life that I had in a while. People kept asking me before I left why are you going to Germany, honestly it was just because my favorite soccer team plays there so it was something I wanted to do.
So, I went to their stadium to do a tour. Bayern Munich (the soccer team) also had an awesome museum at their stadium so I got to see that as well.
I also did a lot of learning while in Munich, especially about King Ludwig II of Bavaria because I went to go see Neuschwanstein Castle (a castle Ludwig did not complete before his strange death). This castle is gorgeous and near the Bavarian Alps, so the views are just incredible. There were so many places that I was not allowed to take photos of that I wish I was able to. For that reason I just recommend people to go to Munich. I fell with this city and I wish I could live there. Now being home it makes me jealous that people really think that New York is the best place to live or they get excited to come here but for me, I just wish I could get out of here.
I’m glad I got to go to Germany and just simply had an experience of life time and I can not wait to go on more adventures again, but Germany will definitely be a place I’d travel to again.